Monday, February 9, 2009

Just Wanna be Alone

I'd have better shut up, than make everything getting worse. Probably I've should ignore this pain, rather than let it drove myself crazy. But I couldn't... So I decide to lock myself off. By digging my own grave, it's a deep well actually. Then I jump in, free falling... Hard to explain the reasons, because I'm crazy may be...

Just.. It seems like living in the bottom of the well isn't too pathetic. At least I can keep myself invisible from outside world that only would get me forget who I wanna be. At least I can forget bout my obsession to fly high, since I have no wings right?

Well, in my pitch-black world nobody can see me. Being invisible and ignored, I know it's sad and lonely. But, what's different if the sunshine that spot my existence only hurts my skin, my bone, and dry up my blood. Well, I lived there, but I was not alive in stead.

It's ok being fragile, rite? Human isn't that strong enough... yup, me... a human being.

Sometimes, I need to cry when I'm sad. It's good for my mental health I guess. Trying to feel my heart... admit if I'm weak... no needs to look tough all the time.

But, everything will be just fine soon...
Nankurunaisa ^_^

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